The next time was when I stayed over he asked me to blow him again but I refused. I felt betrayed and humiliated though after which is why I refused afterward. I had an erection the whole time I did it and I didn't want to stop either I just kept sucking. I did it In another friends basement and he wasn't supposed to watch but secretly he did and told others about it. My best friend used to make me blow him when I refused to after he tricked me into blowing him by leading me to believe he would reciprocate. If anyone has any advice, I'd be so grateful. I guess it's only natural, considering how stupid I was. Have I ruined our friendship? Oh God, I feel terrible. Things are different between us now, and there's no going back in time to fix this. What do I do now? Should I try to talk to him? Should I leave it for time to heal? I'm just at a loss, and really down on myself.
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Also, I made a really stupid choice indulging in that drug if I hadn't done that, none of this would have happened. I'm not gay, but I guess the fact that I broke my own "rule book" (if that makes sense) by doing this extreme thing is really bothering me. What did I do so wrong? I mean, I know I performed oral s** on another man, but that's not immoral. After he came, he basically disappeared, and every time I've seen him since he's had a cold look on his face, not a word. He then zipped up without saying anything. He came in my mouth, I swallowed (that was kind of different), no mess at all. I finished it (meaning I brought him to o*****). I honestly had fun doing it he was rock hard and it made me happy to know that I was helping someone feel good. While I was doing it I couldn't believe it, but I kept at it. But for whatever reason, he let me go through with the act. The whole thing lasted about five minutes. He said, "Whoa, I was just kidding dude!" but somehow, a minute or so later I was undoing his belt. Then he asked me, "Why, you wanna give me one or something?" Before I knew what I was doing, impulsively, I told him I would. I don't know how it happened (God, I'm so ashamed), but before long I started asking him a lot of personal questions about how often he had s**, who he had it with, if he got a lot of blow jobs, for one. I've only had a few girlfriends in my life, and it's been a long time since the last one.Īnyway, I don't really know how else to say this other than to say it: the coke made me really h****. It's not that I'm not attractive (I'm not Brad Pitt) but I'm surely more shy than he is. I don't have a girlfriend and have struggled with this for years. Josh has a girlfriend (has never had a hard time with girls) and is definitely an attractive guy. We got to talking about a lot of different things, and eventually the conversation turned to s**. The guy who brought it over left after about an hour, and then it was just the two of us. We all did it, but I seemed to like it the most (or it's possible I just had the hardest time controlling my enthusiasm). It cleared up the drunken haze I was feeling. Anyway, after about five minutes he pulled out some cocaine. Someone came over, someone he knows but hasn't for very long. We were drinking some beers, I got really drunk after about 6 or 7 of them.
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Anyway, I made a mistake the other day that I'm really struggling with. I've known him for 11 years and we've always gotten along really well (yes, I'm male).
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I'm in college and rooming with my best friend. For one, I'm disappointed in myself (I think). I gave my best friend a b******* and it's ruining our friendship.